I am surrounded with more material riches then I need, more love then I ever imagined, and more grace then I deserve; yet, the past two weeks, my inadequacies have stared me in the face, causing an unshakeable restlessness in my spirit . I have been left  feeling  "overwhelmed and under qualified" concerning the task of parenting our big crew.   Each day I live with the knowledge that this is one of the biggest things I will ever be part of and the way my heart is connected to it is indescribable! It is a heart connection that transcends all logic. It is a heart connection that enables me to love even the unlovable.  Moms, I know you know exactly what I mean. Having two that are grown, both 19, I am fully aware that time is of the essence. So yesterday I stood in this beautiful place, with an overwhelming awareness that my call is bigger then my abilities. That awareness left me hovering where the tears want to come but I choke them back. I was actually driving alone and ridiculously happy to be able to go to the eye doctor without 6 kids in tow. The 5 minute drive there felt much longer because I was having an uninterrupted chat with God, alone in the middle of the day; A rare and awesome event in my world!!! So as I continued  holding back the tears that threatened my eye makeup I told God how grateful I was for all He has blessed me with. I thanked Him for His Word and His undeserved grace. I thanked Him for being available to listen whenever I needed Him...Isn't that an amazing thought!?

I asked for wisdom in my parenting and all the other areas He has asked me to serve. I told God I was feeling like I needed to pit stop at the Christian book store and get a parenting book that would encourage me as I raise all these girls. Six to be exact. I explained that I didn't even know what author to look for or what book would be right and ask Him to guide my choice. I prayed my eye appointment would be fast so that I could make a stop for "that" book...whatever "that" book may be. Well as it ended up my time at the eye doctor took FOREVER, and another stop was not an option so I went home feeling a little discouraged. And that is when it happened!!!!! God showed up!!!!!! I found myself in one of those moments where God undeniably reveals how real He is and how much He truly cares for us!!!. When this happens in my life it is no small thing!!! Here is what happened: I arrived home and decided, after relentless pestering from one unnamed child, to open a box of homeschool curriculum that had been delivered earlier that day. This box wasn't particularly exciting (Just math and handwritting) but my 8 yr. old disagreed. She could not wait to see her new cursive handwriting book! So with one swift pull I yank the tape off the top and in an instant things turn from opening a boring box of school books  to standing in the middle of a miracle...a miracle meant for me...a miracle some would view as small or coincidental but make no mistake it was neither! To me it was BIG! The coveted handwriting did not arrive that day. It was the only missing item.

What arrived in is place made me no longer capable of holding back the tears!!! It was "that" book!!!! And these tears were different. As I read the title; "Raising a Daughter After God's Own Heart" I was momentarily unable to speak or move. Could this be for real? I stood in awe of the God I love and serve!!!! I turned the book over and read more. It was exactly what I was looking for!! I KNOW God is Big. I KNOW God is real! I KNOW God loves me! I KNOW I can trust Him! But it is moments like these, where God shows up in such a fashion that makes me more  profoundly aware of all those things I already KNOW!!! Its moments like this where the hair on my arms stands straight up and a chill runs up my spine making me want to tell the whole world what a great and mighty God I serve!!! CBD told me to keep "that" book as a gift from them because of their mistake.

But I know the truth...It was a gift from above!! A gift to remind me and others that God hears us when we pray and He cares! When we face those moments that seem too big to handle...when we feel "overwhelmed and under qualified"...when our call seems bigger then our ability we simply need to take it to Him! God's ability is bigger then your call! He is overqualified not overwhelmed! Best of all, He cares!!! I wonder sometimes how many miracles I miss simply because I don't cast ALL my cares on Him.

I pray that you are inspired to pray without ceasing, casting all your cares on Him, and that in the process you will find yourself right in the middle of a miracle...a miracle God has planned just for you! 1Peter 5:7 "Casting all your care upon Him for He careth for you."