That's one BIG van and I still can't believe its ours! I've been wanting this little" mini-bus" ever since the first time I laid eyes on one last summer. I know, I know most of you can't relate but big changes have a way of changing you; a way of changing your dreams and desires. Every day when I look out and see this massive van I am reminded how God has asked me to make big changes so I can do BIG things for Him. I feel unable at times, inadequate, and under qualified. The truth is I am not able but He's never asked me to do anything that He wasn't able to equip me for!

This God sized call on my life started the day I surrendered myself completely and totally to Him. He asked me to take up my cross and follow Him and I said yes. I wasn't sure exactly what that would look like...but I knew it was BIG! I knew my life would never be the same and change was inevitable. I wasn't nervous or uncomfortable at the time . All I knew is I had said yes to God and that was good! That's why the first step of surrender is sometimes the easiest part. The hard part is saying yes when He asks you to do BIG things that scare you...things that you don't think you can do. He asked me to homeschool my kiddos. Confession....I don't LOVE homeschooling. Its a huge responsibility and a lot of hard work. He asked us to trust Him for the size of our family.

Confession....When Eric and I got married we each had one and we were done. The selfish side of me didn't want more. Having a family our size is a huge sacrifice. He asked me to teach His Word and speak for various women's events. Confession... the thought of public speaking used to LITERALLY make me vomit. He asked us to give up our dream of living in the country and move to the heart of the city so we could do ministry. Confession....I was scared beyond words the first month in our new home. He asked me to serve as Women's Ministry "Director" for our not so small church. Confession...I have no idea what I'm doing and a part of me is terrified but.....He asked... and I said yes.

Each BIG, scary thing that God has asked me to do has changed me. Its changed me for the better and I wouldn't change any of it! With each yes to God I have had to press into Jesus and rely more fully and completely on Him then ever before! The more I press into Him the more I desire Him. The more I desire Him the more He asks BIG things of me....God sized things...things I would have never dreamed of. The biggest change is I'm not scared anymore to say yes! I've learned His plan is better then anything I dreamed of anyway. Sure there's been heartache and hardship along the way because saying yes to God comes with an acceptance that He will probably have to break you before He can remold you into all He wants you to be; so you can do all He wants you to do.

If you are a child of God He has asked you to do BIG things! There are no exceptions! We have all been asked to take up our cross and follow Him. Your BIG things will inevitably look differant then mine but they will nonetheless be BIG to you.

Are you in tune to what God is asking you to do? Have you fully committed yourself to saying yes to God ? Is fear holding you back? Maybe the thought of saying yes to one more thing makes your head spin. Could it be that you've said yes one to many times to all the wrong things...things man has asked of you not God? Its important to reserve your yes' for Him. Ask God today how He wants to use you. Then be prepared to answer with a yes no matter how BIG the task! He will equip you and you will never regret living a life in service to Him!

 1 John 2:17 "And the world is passing away along with its desires, but whoever does the will of God abides forever."