Your poor husband has no clue how he came home early because of rain and out of no where you are throwing him into a new project. This time it started with a thought about my weight and in a matter of seconds a thought about weight gain ends with a remodeled room. Crazy, right?!!! My husband would agree!!! Good thing he REALLY loves me!

My crazy thinking went something like this," One thing I love about being pregnant is that it's like a free ticket to not worry about my weight. When I'm not pregnant I actually have to work at keeping off those extra lbs...ugggg. Why do I really care? Outside of feeling more energetic and being healthier overall there is another very shallow reason that I care. I care what others think. Yikes, that's so shallow!!! But I know its true. I think, if women were all 100% honest they would admit they care too...at least a little. Why do we waste so much energy worried what others might think of us. Always trying to impress. Oh yeah, I better call Sandy for that haircut. I'm sure she thinks I'm crazy after telling her for 2 yrs. that no matter how much I begged her to cut it, she should never EVER, EVER, EVER let me go short again!! I knew I would hate it!  I wonder if I change my shampoo if I'd get more "poof"on top. Maybe my current shampoo cleans TOO well; stripping all my natural oil and leaving it...blah. Thinking of blah, I really hate that new organic cleaner I bought. It makes the house smell blah. Well actually it smells like...wait...I know that smell...that's it!!! I figured it out!!!! It makes the house smell like oregano!

I'm sorry, but if I clean my bathroom and it ends up smelling like a pizza shop on steroids I just don't feel like its clean; no matter what percentage of bacteria killing claims are made! Good thing our dinning room is currently clean and smells like it!! Lemony fresh! But it does need to be painted..." Now you know the thoughts that landed me in the paint section of Home Depot just hours later. Seriously this is how my crazy brain works!

So how could any of that be valuable for anyone? Here's the thinking that followed as I rolled the brown away on my dinning room walls. I spent time talking to God about what women want. We all really just want to be loved and accepted. The truth is we already are. We just forget sometimes. Occasionally, if not frequently, dressing to impress and/ or decorating to dazzle. Often wondering what others will think or say about us. Don't get me wrong I believe that taking care of your outward appearance and your home are very important, but if I'm honest, at times I do it for the wrong reasons. It should always be because I value the home and health God has given me, but I admit on occasion I am motivated by the wrong things. I began to question if I spend more time caring what others think or what God thinks? Is my main motivation Him or others? If I spent just as much time renovating my heart as I do renovating my home what would change?

On the days I spend 35+ minutes showering, and getting ready but just 10-15 min with God I think my heart needs revival. If  a few thoughts about weight loss, hair cuts, and cleaning products prompt a remodel that takes days maybe I need some crazy thinking that sends me into spiritual remodeling? When was the last time I spent days with my Savior, remodeling my heart? Its been a while. I know first hand that the more time I spend on matters of the heart the less time I spend worrying what others think of me. I begin caring more about what God thinks. The more I care what God thinks the more I realize how loved and accepted I am! How could we ever doubt being loved and accepted by the one who died for us??!!!!! The one who paid our ransom! Talk about amazing love!!!

So with Valentines day right around the corner I pray you will be inspired to do some heart renovating and no matter what February 14th looks like for you will be drawn closer to Jesus! I pray you will know and feel the love He so freely offers! I pray if you've never fully given your life to Him you will repent and run to his open loving arms!

I pray you will feel less of a need to impress others and care more about making any renovations that your heart needs! Thanks for following my crazy thinking! I pray you found a nugget! Proverbs 4:23- "Keep your heart with all diligence, for out of it spring the issues of life."NKJ